H-o-l-i-d-a-y

HOLIDAY here we come!!!!!!

Quote of the day

"I'd rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are; because a could-be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a has-been than a might-have-been, by far; for a might have-been has never been, but a has was once an are." Milton Berle

How to pretend everything is OK

There are times when everything is spiraling out of control, but you don't want the outside world to know the true anxiety and hopelessness that you feel. There are ways to protect yourself, to project to the outside world the image of a carefree happy person. These methods take time to learn, but once you master them, you may not even know yourself how you truly feel.

Step 1
Smile. Keep it in place at all times. Give others the impression that you really are happy. Be overly happy, almost to the point that you are manic. Annoy people with the fact that you never seem stressed or sad.

Step 2
Escape. Find a place to go where you don't have to deal with reality. This place doesn't have to be an actual location. It can be in someone's arms, into a book, or even into another state of mind.

Step 3
Lie. Lie to everyone. Especially to yourself. This is very difficult at first. But eventually, with enough practice, you will be able to have no idea exactly how not happy you truly are.
(not recommended)

Step 4
Don't Think. Until you master the art of lying to yourself, just don't think about anything. Don't think about the topics that will bring you down, and don't think about anything else either since your thoughts may wander down paths to the topics that will bring you down. So, to be safe, just don't think.


P.S : I think smiling really helps but even that is hard to do sometimes

no offense

you know you're one of my Best Friends. and you know that friend can't hurt each other, talk behind her back, lying over her, avoid each other, and a best friend should be the best for her besties. but do you know what are you doing now?
you act like a boss, and i'm a loser.
you said that i'm a liar
you talk behind my back
A true friend will never do those things
A true friend reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
and now i know that you're not my true friend, you're just a-friend-for-fun.
don't pretend that nothing happened, and everything's okay with me.

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

P.S : no offense.

13

ignore me, avoid me, but do not hate me.

Free Day - Friday

- hari terakhir ujian praktek
- ujian praktek seni musik
- pool party @shaq's
- my brother bought me a lomolitos!!!!!!
- prepare for uas (wish me luck)



bye.

stalker.

hari ini gue ga ada kerjaan banget deh. dari kemaren pulang sekolah cuma tidur, makan, tidur lagi, check facebook blog dan lain lain. tapi tadi di sekolah lumayan lah ya ada hiburan sedikit. jadi hari ini gue tuh ujian praktek komputer trs gue dapet giliran yang pertama(fyi komputer ada 3 sesi) padahal ghrena thalita omin dapetnya sesi ketiga, kalo dinda kedua. nah berarti gue sendirian dong. sebenernya ada yang lain cuma berhubung kelas gue kurang asik (maaf) jadi garing gitu di ruang komputer. yaudah akhirnya gue duduk di sebelah rizki. tau ga sih loooooo tes nya ga penting bgt, jadi disuruh bikin kartun animasi gitu pake program macromedia flash mx temanya indonesia. mau bikin apaan coba tuh. macromedia itu program bikin animasi semacem paint brush cuma lebih canggih soalnya gambar sama tulisan yang lo buat bisa gerak2 trs muter2 gitu asik banget deh huahahahaha lanjuttttt, akhirnya gue gambar aja bendera bendera sm pulau-pulau warna ijo maksudnya kepulauan indonesia. abis itu gue bikin tulisan indonesia yang funkycutie abis itu semuanya gue bikin gerak ke atas kebawah. pas gambar gue selesai gue blg gini ke rizki "kiiiiiii liat ki gambar gue awesome bgt kaaaan?" rizki bilang "oh bagus mut...bagus daripada gue kapal-kapal gini ga jelas" gue ga tau ya dia jujur apa ngga tapi ki, gambar lo itu lebih bagus daripada gue soalnya matahari lo bisa muter-muter. yaudah gue panggil si guru komputer fuck namanya antoni. trs pas nilai dia bilang "coba ctrl+enter...hmm yaya" abis itu gue bilang "bagus kan pak? bagus kan?" eh tau ga sih lo dia bilang apa "hmm itu apa? kamu gambar cendol?" hah?!?!?!?!?! cendol?????? dasar kampung lo. hhhhh gimana gue ga kesel. yaudah lupain antoni. selesai komputer, gue turun kebawah soalnya kan ruang komputer ada di lantai 3. pas sampe dibawah gue liat ghrena thalita omin sama karcin lagi jalan ke parkiran yaudah gue samperin trs katanya mereka pada mau ke sd bm, akhirnya gue ikut. di sd bm kan banyak orang yang jualan makanan, akhirnya gue beli nasi uduk. yang lain pada beli bubur ayam. tadinya gue mau beli bubur tapi gue laper bgt yaudah akhirnya beli nasi uduk. oh iya nasi uduk nya harga nya 17 ribu, kalo bubur cuma 5 ribu. mendingan gue beli bubur ayam :S
balik ke smp bm, gue masih makan yg lain juga makanannya blm abis jadi kita makan di kelas. selesai makan, thalita ghrena omin ke atas buat praktek komputer. gue blm dijemput jadi gue ke avi. trs tadi foto-foto pake kameranya ai sama tamara (tam foto infrared nya manaaaaaaaa). abis itu yang jemput kakak gue jemput trs tadi kita ke sushi tei mau makan dulu, abis itu beli cetak foto abis itu gue beli baju karena seragam gue loecoe bgt. sampe dirumah...................gue tidur. bangun-bangun jam 4an. padahal gue tidur jam 1. abis itu ga ada kerjaan yaudah as usual, nyalain laptop buka fb, youtube, ol msn, blog. kebiasaan stalking gue juga ga bisa dirubah. jadi setiap hari gue buka facebook itu gue liatin profile orang-orang, terutama hmmmm. sebenernya ga penting juga sih ngeliat foto-foto nya trs ngeliatin wall-to-wall nya abis itu ngeliat status nya. itu ga sehari aja, tapi bisa setiap gue online. parah. ok, jadi sekarang gue harus rubah kebiasaan -o'-'o-